June 28, 2020
It has become cooler outside of the house than in, especially on my balcony when it’s shaded. I like to write with a breeze across my face.
I asked some of my students in one of their journal entries to write about change:
Are you someone who welcomes change? Or do you usually want things to stay the same? What’s something that has changed in your life, and how did you react?
I’ll quote a few of them here:
* Something that had changed in my life is when my sister was born. I dont exactly remember how i reacted but i know that i was some what happy but not really. I liked being a only child.
* I do accept small changes but i prefer things to stay the same because im not very good at accepting changes
* For example, the Covid-19 outbreak was a very quick transformation to a completely different lifestyle. . . . Of course I believe this quarantine should continue if the case numbers aren’t going down, I just wish this would all be over soon.
It’s a good thing to think about. I think most of the time, I do all right with change. Teaching has taught me to be flexible, and the more I shed my tendency towards perfectionism, the more I’m able to see each new hurdle as an experiment. I’ve become more comfortable with going into a new situation with a plan, making adjustments, and then reflecting on what I’ve learned. It’s cyclical, so there’s no point at which you stop and declare failure. You just kind of keep going around.
The thought of settling down and choosing a home used to mortify me, like I would be condemning myself to inglorious boredom if I ever reached a place where I was satisfied with my life. I think that I’m pretty happy with how I’m living now, but change is still on my mind. There’s so much I want to do to push things forward, so many injustices to challenge, so many trends to reverse. I want to “make a difference” in the field of education — oh, how naive and insipid that sounds! It’s potato salad with no mustard. But it’s true! And yet, that phrase means something new now. Instead of just dreaming about someday doing something, I am considering my next moves in search of the way I will advance. I know that I’m constantly growing in my work and in what I learn and in the net effect I have on the world.
Change is good, I think. It’s the opposite of old yogurt.
See you next week,
change the moon
change the soles of your shoes for new
your soul for new pasture
your soul for city jeans and boots
boot out no recompsense,
no jam left in the drawer.
Poems to Read this Week
i know i am in love again when
Buy her book, Gilt, at your local independent bookstore
Sada do pal da hai saath, Karachi
won’t you celebrate with me